Hi darlings. I feel like it has surely been a while since I took the time to just sit down and write a good old-fashioned blog post. Most of my posts are picture heavy, and although I love when things are that way, it's nice to just sit down, type and allow my words to flow. Lately, I've been thinking to myself, reflecting on many things. At 23 years old, I feel like I'm at a good place in my life. For the most part, I'm actually happy and I feel like at this point, I wouldn't trade anything in for something else. For starters, I know what I want to do with my life, career-wise, and I've been working towards that for the past few years. Although I have many years of education and experience to go, I don't regret the career choice I've made and I feel secure with my decision. I used to feel like I was wasting time and I don't feel like that anymore. I'm surrounded by wonderful girlfriends - Some new, some old. I've been lucky over the past few months, being blessed with girlfriends that I can confide in, rely on, relate to and have fun with, all at the same time. Sadly to say, lately, I feel as though a very close friend of mine has been drifting. I'm not sure if we're just growing apart or if something is actually wrong. I've reached out several times, she responds cordially, but she doesn't return the gesture, even when I allow weeks to fly by. I'm not sure if she's bothered by the fact that I've been making new friends, as is she, or if we're just going down two completely different paths. I'm not sure, but hopefully in the near future, we can re-establish our friendship. Maybe we just need a our little time apart. Sadly enough, or not, I've come to terms with growing apart from very close friends as time surpasses. I feel as though it's natural at our ages. We have so many different and exciting things being thrown at us as once, some relationships just don't make it - Whether it be permanently or temporarily. No hard feelings to those I've grown away from, I just chalk it up to our time being in the past. Lately, I've felt very... Free. Probably the most free I've felt throughout all of my life. I feel like I have the opportunity to go anywhere I wish to go, see anything I wish to see and make whatever choices I wish to make with no regrets. It's nice to feel as though nothing is holding me back. My interests are growing and I feel as if I'm becoming more... Me. I guess I'm growing into myself. I've managed to make time for school, love, friendship and fun, as well as personal space. I'm standing on a firm foundation and I no longer feel any sort of fear. I used to fear that I was running out of time, but nowadays I feel as though that's absolutely absurd and impossible. I'm young. Point blank. If I happen to die tomorrow, then so be it, it was my time. I don't fear my fate. It's nice to know myself so well to be able to recognize when and how I'm developing and advancing as an individual. Everything about me is becoming more and more personal. My style, my interests, my relationships, my wishes, my goals and my space. It's a nice transformation from the semi-confused person I was a few years ago. I've always felt comfortable in my own skin, I've always loved myself... Now I'm too a point where I love myself, as well as the people I'm surround by and everything that's happening around me. This summer just feels like a renewal. Maybe because it's my first summer in the last 3 years that will be entirely spent in New York City, no more weekly trips out of state, that after a while just felt like an obligation and lacked any enjoyment. So on the topic of summertime, what are some things you plan to do, see and accomplish? I've come up with a list.1. Visit the Brooklyn Botanic Garden.
2. Visit the Aquarium, as well as the Bronx Zoo.
3. Face my fear and visit the Statue of Liberty.
4. Check out Shakespeare in the Park.
5. Before the summer is over, visit the Alexander McQueen exhibit at the Met.
6. Have a fiesta themed BBQ, as well as a Luau themed BBQ.
7. Make homemade ice cream and mini cherry and blueberry pies.
8. Come up with at least 3 frozen drink recipes of my own.
9. Achieve a glowing tan and possibly cut my hair... Just a little bit.
10. See Dom Kennedy at SOB's in July and Damian Marley/Nas in August.
11. Get my 5th tattoo before the summer is up.
12. Hopefully, visit Jamaica, again. As well as, take a weekend trip to Virginia Beach and possibly DC.
13. Give my room a major makeover, which should be done in August. Can't wait.
14. Have plenty picnics.
15. Lastly, shoot more film and possibly invest in another manual film camera.
Do you guys have any lists like this? Share, if so.
Well, this is long enough... I hope you guys enjoyed reading, if you did at all. Summertime is here, so make the best of it! I'm hoping it's worth it for each and every one of you. Thanks for reading, babies.
XOXO
